Ultimately I wasn't good enough.
I was very slight until I filled out at 21 and was never particularly fast.
I developed late and walked into in my final year at Halifax (U16), into a dressing room full of actual men. I was mentally a young 16, I spent my free time playing Championship Manager, two of the lads at Halifax were preparing to be dad's, the others had began going out, so I didn't really fit in, something that is key at that age.
Looking back now, I think mentally the penny never dropped that if I really applied myself, I could do it as a job.
The 'College Academy' was a great standard and there was talks of trials in Ireland and scholarships in US but it only really worked out for one lad, our goalkeeper who ended up playing in the US for a while before moving to Scandinavia.
Our college/district games were played at Ossett Town and Albion. I was asked to start playing for Albion's reserves who were in the North East Counties meaning we spent every Tuesday playing over the pennienes, some where far, far away, add that to training twice a week, a game at the weekend and starting work at 6am every morning and something had to give.
By 21 I'd filled out and learnt how to use my body and had developed a confidence and arrogance that I wish I'd have had in my younger days but I still couldn't see that there was a (slight) chance to work my way up and play football for a living, something that happened to Martyn Woolford. Martyn came on trial at Coventry but was rejected at the first stage, he played locally, got bought by Guisley and then got his big move to S****horpe, from there he went to Bristol City and scored a playoff final goal at Wembley and signed for Sheff Utd.